oh! April 18..

whoa!!! my e-mail inbox is flooded with spam and other such crap..i have messages and requests and the likes.. this phenomenon, i have not experienced ever since i got myself familiar with the pc.. hahaha.. guess that's what you get (when you let your heart win.. whoa!! lol) when you're cooped inside a house with no pc for.. what.. more than what you expect to be.. but i ain't complainin.. me is just amazed.. cguro d ko lang napapansin 'cpz they never really pile up..

oh well..

can't wait for the 18th.. my gala uniform is ready..
but the rest ain't..
i still have a white stocking, cap n shoe to worry about.. though not as much with the stockings.. i'm pretty sure i can "borrow" my sistah's..
the cap i want new and clean.. hmmm.. New and Clean.. the cap..
the shoe? what a bout the shoe!! i still have the one i wore for graduation.. it still fits.. but given that i haven't worn it for almost 2 yrs (APril 20, '07 ung last) i find it's quality questionable..

oh.. and the Pin.. my college pin.. hmmm... it's somewhere in the hands of tita Rose.. those who know tita Rose would understand.. hehehe.. or not... because it's my fault she has it.. Gluttony.. and literal Gluttony at that. I became oh so hungry, i felt i was starved for centuries one day that i hgad the urge to lend my pin to dear Tita.. hehe.. needless to say.. i never got it back.. so i will just have to borrow from a dear friend her pin until i get enough funds to take back, from tita Rose, what is rightfully mine!!!

me has got to go now.. mi ija is making nakaka-awa faces..

Is This My Lucky Year or What?!!

woohooo!!!

i'm overwhelmed with joy and whatever it is.. let's just say i'm ecstatic.. in euphoria!!

my baby, Serena Alexi Sue, came out and met the word healthy and is remaining still.. she is.. as NEeka (one of the ninangs) said, a little bundle of joy.. thing is though.. she ain't little at all.. she's big.. lapit na nga siya naging overweight when i had her vaccinated for OPV,Hepa B (left a bruise), and DPT (darn hyperthermia!) when she was six weeks old.. nga pala.. January 4, 2009 siya pinanganak.. oh well.. i uploaded some of her photos due to insistent public demand (c/o Charmaine Valdez Pecson, R.N. lol).. basta andyan siya.. and she doeasn't fit the length of my thighs anymore.. she's grown.. super fast.. kaso ikli pa hair nya.. di pa syado mapa.kikay.. although right now she's wearing a clip (c/o Tamy, that's what we cal jett.. my sister.. tiTA momMY), and a pretty flowery dress i bought for this specific occassion (thanksgiving party ni Genie Marie Austero,R.N.)..

tas yun.. I Passed MY NURSING LICENSURE EXAMINATION! 81.80na talga ang score.. di na tulad nung 74.20 last June.. at least ngayon i feel more kampante na i can provide for her.. kasi.. you know naman me.. ma.arte..

so sa mga ninong at ninang.. dapat ang gift.. hehehehehe..

Breaking Dawn.. Breaking Me..

My phone.. the ever trusty n6630, na i am satisfied with has failed me.. or mali lang talga ang application/s na ginagamit ko..

Operation Failed!
Not Enoough Memory

darn.. i hate seeing it..

i read Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse with no problems sa cp ko using an adobe pdf reader.. kaso.. and Breaking Dawn.. huhuhuhuhu.. yun.. errors!

ang anxiety ko!
grrr..

to add to it.. my elementary bestfriend did some telling a.k.a. spoilers that's making me itch even more to read it..

ala naman pc sa bahay..
ang laptop ng kapatid ko naman.. nasa apartment nya..
naiwan dahil na kalimutan or he conveniently left it there so that I won't be hugging is precious gadgetry.. hmpf..
but i shudder to think of the latter..
he did after all leave his lappy with me when i asked for it.. para magamit ko pang study sa b.xam last month..

why don't i have my lappy anyway?!
or better yet..
WHY DON't I HAVE MY WN S.MEYER BOOK SET?!!!

ah..
alang available na stock sa mga bookstore..
and i am overly depending on my not so dependable guy bestfriend on him giving me the book set for my christmas present..
kasi na sa US kapatid nya.. para sabay na sa package..
pero i have a feeling na he's not doing anything about the book thingie..
kakainis isipin..

i told him na yun na yung pampalit nya sa nawala nyang "almanac of the uncanny" book ko about paranormal itches.. na d ko pa natapos basa pero dahil nga mabait akong friend.. pinahiram ko muna kasi nga "IMO BITAW NI!" grrr.. and tat was what.. erm.. 6 years ago!
sana makonsensya siya! hehehehe

hanggang ngaun same error parin ang sinasabi ng cp ko..

grrr..

and i can't find an intelligent and direct soluion sa problem.. or siguro i'm just to anal about the solution.. andyan na cguro pero di ko lang ma.accept..

hahai..

something to forget the itch about

been away for a while now..

obviously a line from a song..

it's been.. what?.. 3 months since i last did my emo itches., and yes.. i still have a lot to be emo about.. specially because i'm feeling very shitty right now..

but.. i don't wanna talk about it just yet.. it'll just make me feel a whole lot shittier than i feel right now.. so i'm lookin' in a lighter and brighter direction..
(mi bb's got an overdose of cortisol already.)

Si Tut..
he came to the rescue again..

this past few months, as i said, have been full of itches.. and though i can honestly say that he's not the best person to help me, given that his itch is as much as the itch Hai.. is giving me.. he just makes me laugh and feel stupid bt happy 'bout my great stupidities.. gets nyo?..

magulo gud ulo ko.. makabadtrip.. pero as i said.. he was at the rescue..

it was a wee bit late.. well.. late for me as i have to be home early because of the baby.. and i was crying an ocean (because of somethings i don't wanna talk about pa..)and there he was.. an angel in disguise.. literally.. he was like..

"What's up with you again?"
"same old same old.. what else is new.."
"what'd you do now?"
"expected to be love.. the way you're gf deserves to be.."
"hmmmm"
"why do you guys do that to us?!"
and the frank.est of all answers came..
"because we're guys."

we walked.. and barely talked..

as he usually does..
"want chocolates?"
"because obviously that's the only food left in your fridge.. right?"
" i got beef jerky too.. but i don't recommend you eat it.. i think it's spoiled or something.."
"so why hte hell'd you offer it then???"
"because i know you want it and i wanted you to know i have it." laughs.. and turns to his phone..
"tawagan natin si Pieton"
i went.. "NO! magagagalit lalo yun!"
"he's our friend.. and he has the bestest calm head for an emo chic like you right now!"
as if naman you're not emo.. but what the hell..
so pieton was on the line talking all calm and making me cry again..
"bagay kayo magsama cause you have the same.. erm.. itch going on.."
"really? he's still not done with his stuffs?" as if naman i have the right to be all shocked when I myself am not done with my stuffs..
and as pieton and i were talking pala.. tut was scanning my phone for porn.. which i have.. and i won't deny it.. so what? dba?!
"san ang scandals?!"
i placed my gallery in a very accessible button on my phone..
"easy access dear!"
"maganda toh?"
"i don't know.. i've only but seen it but without the oooohs! and ahhhhs! because i lost my headset."
"well we're in the house and we can put it in full volume.. gusto mo connect natin sa speakers?! lol"
so with the volume maxed.. we listened and watched and were basically bored because we realized we rock better than those in the vids.. we just laughed and shoved the phone and he continued with what he was doing before i bothered him..
he was doing a first season series marathon of which i've already watched hanggang sa season 4.. so i was pretty much talking about what happened the whole time as i was about to freeze to death in the room and that his stupid comforter was good for him only.. grrr.. and brrr..
he went " i'm watchin' you know"
hahahah.. and i saw his phone and scanned through his collection..
"it'll just bore you.. mas updated kapa kesa sakin!"
but i still looked on.. because i don't recognize some of the vidz.
i adjusted the volume and listened on..
"hindi ako maka concentrate jazz"
then stop watching the series ako na kwento para di ka madisturb.. hehehe
sex was never taboo for us..
it was the one sane thing we communicate mostly about..
in short.. na busy ako sa porn that i forgot i was crying oceans just minutes ago..

the good thin bout tut is..
he's a horny friend who won't try anything on you..
or maybe just didn't want to notice the signs..
erm.. like..

him watchin the vids almost over my trunk..
and yes him touching my tummy from the back..

and yes, i know a few good horny men who have pregnant fetishes..
hahahaha.. pero ibang kwento na yun..

needless to say.. as much as porn does something to people like us.. nothing happened.. nothing will happen..

and as i close this blog.. i feel better na.. less emo itch i think..
kaso the truth still remains..

these itches won't end until i decide to end them.. and it'll probably take long pa..
bka next year? or somebody decides to sane up.. hmmm..

scream for me for the mean time..

What's Been Happenin'

So what has been happening with my life..
Let's break it down into:
+ Skye
+ Tut
+ My Board Exam
+ Hai..

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+Skye+
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*Going four months..
The first USD was more than a month ago.. saying "hi momma! i'm 10 weeks old!" and i haven't had Skye checked after that.. and i have not had myself checked at all. I read my Maternal and Child Nursing books early this afternoon. That made me rethinking on reading further.
My ever pregnant friends told me not to use this and that.. basically the "kikay" stuffs like facial wash, toner, and other appliques,( and yes, even if it was expensive, Jazz!) but I wouldn't listen. i have a crazy break-out and I Don't want to look ugly, specially now that I'm single and am hunting for Skye's dad-to-be.
That, until I read the book. it was a different book because it was the "IT" book for Skye. The other books I read, I read only because it was more illustrative, and basically no reading occurred. I liked it showing how Skye looks now. Until I read that book.
Another helpful friend sent me a file on alcohol and pregnancy, because I asked if he could accompany me for a "quick" drinking session..
Need less to say, I am not allowed
- to put any topical whats-its unless they are alcohol free (no facial wash/scrub/toner/moisturizer, etc.) because it can result to CNS damage.

- alcohol because it can cause fetal alcohol syndrome, or something like it.. (my kid will be a drunkard even before she/he is born.)
[I can.. somehow.. live with that]
- caffeine/soda/Chocolates because it may contribute to Low Birth Weight.
[darn this.. me loves coffee!!!]
- tight clothings because it can cause deformities and candidiasis..
[supah down side: i don't have enough clothes anymore..]
*Braxton-Hicks Sign present
yeah! I feel the kicks and bloating.. basta yan..
*basically still hidden from the ever judging people that surround me.
it's better that way.. magulo ang mundo..

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+Tut
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Well.. he has been the food of my head for the past month.. and no.. we have not done anythign significant for the green-minded.. we do intellectual stuffs.. like crazy early morning or late night talks and debates..
As much as I want him.. I don't.. and everyone i know who understands me and tut's history would say it is impossible that we are just.. erm.. for lack of better word.. FRIENDS.
I met an old friend of ours last saturday at a food joint. I was with a date who I just met because he was the new guy in a group of friends I forgot I had. since he lives near where I live, they designated him as my buddy to go home with. When everybody was on a vehicle to go home and we where left alone together, I quickly made "para" a taxi so we could go home na. But he said.. "coffee muna tayo?!" ..grrr.. me and my weakness for coffee.. free coffee in this case.. so I said "tara! libre ka ha!" "O! bah!" and off we went to that food joint.. that makasalanang food joint for B. .. are you still with me.. this guy is not tut, let's call him tutut.. hehehe..
So tutut and me sat drinking the nth cup of coffee we could muster, when old friend of me and tut walked by and said..
"Monica Sara Arguillas!, payata na nimo oi!"
OO na! payat na ako.. [i'm like skin and bones with nice set of boobs and a slutty hairdo..] I introduced tutut to old-friend and he asked if he's my bf.. i said
"NO"
of course.. as if it was a signal for him.. he went and pinched my cheeks with both his big hands, just like he did when we used to hang out together.. I went and said
"Aray! ganyan din ginawa ni other-old-friend sa akin last sat.. kayo ba! kapayat ko na.. la na kayo makurot pagpilitan nyo parin!"
"nagkikita pa pala kayo?!"
"yup! last sat nga.. kasam c tut and (other old friends)"
"ah! si tut! musta na kayo? nag-evolve kayo? last time nakita ko kayo.. aw..
(he stopped to look at tutut who had a very interested face as if waiting for the word running thru his head to be blurted out by "old friend"..)
.. sayang, bagay panaman kayo, wag ka paloko kay Jazz, di yan inosente!" in a louder volume.
...
Tut on the other hand was texting me on my other number, which I left at home because I wasn't expecting anything.
msgs were:
"san ka. cofi?"
"ei. @ blugre. habol."
"bhay ka. bango ng cofi."
"sarap ng cofi."
all i read when i arrived home well after 4am.. not much of a loss anyway.. kung iisipin mo yung coffee.. 4 ata yung cups ng coffee naubos ko.
and yes, me and tutut are friends lang din. he's too.. erm.. me.. the sad me..
tut on the other hand is the green me.
so i choose the latter.

a better friend in "deed"?!
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+My Board Exam
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74.20%
test I = 79%
test II = 69%
test III = 69%
test IV = 74%
test V = 80%

yang test 2 & 3.. i figured they'd be the lowest.. what with Hai..'s text message, dissing and cussing at me.. when i looked into my SMS during break after test 1.. and come to think of it, it was test 3 when I, so pissed about the message, got stuck on a question for 10 minutes or more and when I realized i was "tanga" I shook myself and said "FUCK" in the middle of the board exam room.. hehehe.. so it was a fail..
ang test 5 naman.. i was thinking bagsak din.. i was like *shit.. i didn't study this.. or *WTF! ano ito? .. i guess it I was lucky i had a lot of trust in bersabe that's why i had better scores in it.. THANKS SIR RUELLE!

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+Hai..
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hai.. he's.. erm.. back? ..